an itinerant ghost settles on the surface of an itinerant pool. ------ weightless resting upon the surface of the water. weightless without the once-protruding bone at her back. but she borrows weight once again for just a minute, delving her elbows into the shallow pool. she fishes out a stone without needing to search. it has been long-buried: the foundation of a collapsed cairn. it is an ordinary stone, shrouded in a layer of mud and algae. she scrubs her paws over it, revealing the impossible luster beneath. as she cradles it, equally impossible lights blink into the stitch-gaps left between the stars. a spectacle almost forgotten, nearly foreign to her in its nostalgia. she exhales. she remembers. _this place... my father and i used to come here. i never told... that's why i knew it,_ she says to no-one in particular. _it's okay to be alone,_ answers the wind, cadence cascading ripples across the inkblot at her feet. the stars wobble. she looks up at the steadily burning ones, but the water collecting at her eyes makes _everything_ wobble. a sharp damp ache blooms in the back of her throat. _i know. i know i know i know._ _it is just the first time_ _in a long time_ _where i've been barren._ {October 2021}

Art of my cowboy oc Ora interning at her wife's lawyer office. (her wife belongs to @1ore!) {April 2021} WELL WELL WELL. I'm finally dusting off this account and sniffing around. Looking forward to seeing y'all around! Going to be posting some backlog at first and then easing into more current work. 💌

grab the bull by its horns / or go for the neck / [灯](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJ4MIarCS5U)

{September 2020} sweet thuja sitting on the surf. just a little fun experiment testing some brushes i uncovered! i've been thinking a lot about this little scamp lately ;o;

_I made this,_ she thinks, lightly feeling the smattering of faded beads adorning the toe. _We made these._ She reaches out in sunset-mist towards the matching but superior shoe. _I…ran…in these? Arrived in these?_ Ahkŭ feels the ghosts of her tears' migratory patterns on her face begin to cool. She tries to turn to look at her grandmother but her lightly pluming form dissipates, leaving only a thin wisp of smoke from the once-ignited ember of her memory. Exhaustion hits her, and Ahkŭ struggles to coalesce thoughts into words: _Who **was** I?_ 🙜 A piece completed in July 2019. The lineart was done traditionallyin October 2018 and then the piece scanned to be finished digitally. This is a story piece for my oc Ahkŭ, a nature spirit who was once a young girl that fled her home to head into the mountains, wearing shoes she and her huichi beaded together. In this piece, she has just found her stash of belongings from before she was transformed. She touches a shoe with her paw, and her memories come flooding back.

and they sentenced us forever / in prison for no crime / our hearts are made of tender / with no room to nickel and dime when the carriage stops at night, / will you think of our farewell? / the music plays in silence [I'll just wait for springtime](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ht4XPkky4Lo) / wait for springtime ∞ {April 2021} personal photo study of my new home. i've been reading a lot of tarot, so i drew some cards for this piece -- the magician, queen of cups, and death. been feeling and unfeeling a lot lately, but today was the first day that felt like spring in a long, long time.

{September 2021} art trade!

{April 2020} a very belated birthday present for Kiire of her esk Tex trudging through some wheat. it's my first embroidery hoop! i usually do needlework on odds and ends so it was a fun trial for more displayable work. this was also a huge challenge for me because SO MANY COLORS and color changes omg. plus it's my first real piece of scenery and experimenting with thread count and depth. i really enjoyed working on this & always love pushing myself to try new things. took ~10 days working on and off!

wear my scars, white as lace / save me a [prayer](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3xeXS2pnnE) and a resting place ᠃ ✦᠃ {January 2021} Where do I even begin? A year ago, I got invited by [Kiire](https://www.deviantart.com/kiire) to create a cowboy character to be a part of Tex's gang. With a little convincing, I decided to give it a shot. Whatever, right? Then on a bigger whim I asked @1ore if she would be interested in a possible design trade, because who better in my mind to design a desert esk and her original form? And BOY did 1ore deliver and more ;; What followed was a year of plotting, laughs, roleplaying, silly doodles, serious illustrations, tarot readings, spindlewheeling sessions, movie nights, and brought me closer to some of the kindest and most genuine people I've ever met. I get emotional thinking about the sheer whirlwind Ora brought me and I have no doubt in my mind creating her story and getting to share it with the people I love is the reason I'm alive here in 2021. The joy I've been brought is immeasurable and my sincerest thanks extends to anyone and everyone who's listened to me chatter about what my cowgirl was up to or supported the artwork I've put out about her. Thank you to vlpn for having Blue be one of Ora's closest friends (and you being mine too!) and for the lovely cloud painting inspiration. Her work, photography by [luke flynt](https://unsplash.com/@lukeflynt), and a RDR2 screencap that I have stupidly misplaced but definitely based the thumbnail in my sketchbook inspired this piece. I also have a degree in film studies, and one thing I've been conscious of in working on Ora's story is thinking about tropes of cowboy masculinity in Westerns, and how she internalizes and interacts with them. So I knew I wanted to do a mock film still to pay homage to the infamous Walker in her element. This is a very common shot in films, called the Rückenfigur or the behind shot, if you're like me and forget the name and have to look it up every single time. When leaning into her outlaw persona, this is the image she'd like to give off: stony and in control. (Don't worry, she's actually a big softie =,^) ) Annnd my final little nugget of inspiration is, of course, Tarot. What's an illustration without a little Tower? :3c I'm still so excited to continue to build Ora's story, and once again, a rancorous hootin and hollerin thank you to everyone who's helped her come to life. <3

{January - February 2020} sculpture commissions for [Kiire](https://www.deviantart.com/kiire), [fiachmara](https://www.deviantart.com/fiachmara), and [vlpn](https://www.deviantart.com/vlpn)! all of their esk hanging out in my backyard.

{October 2021} [this is over](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kfl6K24b3q0&t=318s) [...]

{October 2021} commission for Keen-Bean of her little esk Sildesa taking a quiet walk. thank you so much for your support ;o; <3