It was hard to wake up today, as it was hard to get up yesterday. My eyes are all puffy and all the crying keeps gluing them shut. It will get better, but for now my heart is full of sorrow. I wish I could get her back, but I know I can’t. I know I will love another dog like her one day and even though nothing can replace her, I know the pain will sting less. It’s hard to find new daily rituals, so much of our time was spend on taking care of her and her disability. I’m not really one to believe in afterlife or reincarnation, but I really hope wherever she is, she is happy and she can use her rear legs again.

My baby girl is gone, but she was here and she is (still) loved.

For a long time, I had hoped to create an old children’s book style illustrations of our pets shenanigans, maybe I will still someday and maybe one story will be about this loss, maybe with that I could let her memory to live on and she could live in other people’s hearts too, she brought a lot of joy to others in life, maybe she could still do that. For now, that plan is shelved.

Please give your pets extra hugs and treats today for her.