_«...Cold wind blows from the Silver Mountains, and the sad sky cries with wet snowflakes. Winter will come soon, and the red grass will fall asleep under a white blanket...»_

This is an old drawing, but one of my favorite ones. It gives me a lot of warm feelings, or rather a feeling of coolness and sadness, but not in a bad sense.

Ghost from the past. The memory of what I felt and miss.

Edited version of my old artwork. I always liked it for some reason. It's just a pure vibe, a feeling.

Two hyena brothers. Remake/overpaint of my old artwork from 2015.
There actually was a personal story behind them, and some of these hyenas are not actual hyenas - it’s speaking through their eyes.

Personal artwork for my world.

Here I drew two singing Edar Vaerafes (my fantasy species) - the voices of their hearts and minds merge into a single song, blooming in the form of a symbolic flower. This is their love, their enjoyment of the melody and vibration of each other, their world.

Just another old artwork, a fragment of the atmosphere of my world ~

Airiness and light, music of the sky, flowing shapes of the icy ground. It feels very peaceful, calm and otherworldly.
An open path somewhere far away.

Vius (my OC) meets the first snow. Remake/overpaint of my old artwork.

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_Memories..._

_/...He seemed both so young and so old, frozen in a sense of foreboding and bearing a heavy burden on his heart, but still hoping for something._

_It will be a long and lonely winter, full of cold and sleepless nights.../_

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_«There are two of us in our fragile loneliness.
I touch you and you touch me.
I feel your every breath, your movement and heartbeat.
I can feel love inside of you.
But at the same time I am all alone.
Untouchable...
Fascinated by our perfect unity....
Of me and me»_

No one can feel what others feel, no one can touch the soul of another one. We are all locked within ourselves, alone with our perceptions and our feelings. Words, movements, touches, art... just our fragile attempts to share our feelings. But nothing will ever allow us to feel the other person from the inside.

This is a drawing about loneliness, but at the same time about some kind of harmony with one's own self. A bit about self-love and self-knowledge. And also about the dream of some impossible unity with another soul, when you become one in the moment of truly knowing each other.
The creature here is a Vaeraf, my original species, who have the ability of telepathic-empathic communication, feeling each other's feelings literally.

The original drawing is from 2015 and has been updated (edited and overpainted) in 2020.

It's warm and calm here. The light guards him ~

Updated version of my old artwork from 2016.

Hyenas symbolize the animal, the wild, they are violent and strong predators, yet in my drawings they were often kind and sad, looking for peace, warmth and comfort. Some of them aren't actually hyenas at their heart, but were "born" as these. I chose hyenas because I found them close to me at that time. I was seeking for self-acceptance, comfort, and rest (and looks like I still need it).

Extremely tired, but still standing. Unstable, but balanced.

Personal artwork from 2019.

_"You wake up after a long dream, and now you see the world around you as an even bigger dream. You see sparkling stars around you, and feel that you are one these stars. Universe touches you, and you can see reflection of your soul in it. You are everything and nothing, feeling the dispersal of your energy particles. You are the lie and the truth"_

Old personal artwork. It's about some powerful realization and revelation ~

_«We open our minds and hearts to the light of the universe»_

Personal artwork of my fantasy species, the Vaerafes. These are so-called Taeme Vaerafes - they are one of the most mysterious and intriguing for me. I feel them as very delicate, sadly-cold, and somewhat more alien-like than other Vaerafes. They are very slender and surrealistically graceful, often have a very short, soft and fine fur, which has very light colors from light blue and light yellowish to shining white.

They are known for being the most social and, in some way, the most intelligent Vaerafes, living in large-scale mental/telepathic contact. Such a mental/telepathic way of communication is natural for Vaerafes and many other creatures of their world, but Taeme went further, and thanks to their technology, they created a kind of mental network that allows them to have not only individual, but also global connection with each other. It's like a mental Internet, and they share everything they know, think and feel with each other on some extraordinary level. Because of this, their way of thinking and feeling is very difficult for me to understand, and I use a lot of symbolism when I draw them.

This artwork is about mental, "spiritual", openness and unity - both with each other and the universe, the cosmos, which I depicted in the form of divine light at the top of the pyramid. Cosmos symbolizes the most ancient, most powerful and purest form of life (essence of life), that gave birth to many different worlds and lives.

This is an old artwork I drew in 2015 as a gift for my soulmate, and also as a symbolic/metaphorical interpretation of some balance and connection of two opposites - ice and fire, light and dark and so on. I still love this artwork and it remains one of my favorites ~