_I can't remember me calling you sober,
I wish that I would have asked you to come over,
I must have blacked out again.
That's how it's always been.
Why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling?
Yeah, I'm struggling.
My breath smells like I've been getting high again.
I wish you could have seen me not passed out on the carpet,
While I was unconscious.
Please order my coffin,
I don't think I'll wake up,
I don't want to wake up.
And see anything that looks better off than me.
I'll fill both my lungs with smoke just so I can not breathe,
And I'll take another pill.
Yeah, I'll swallow it down.
Throw myself into the river,
And watch me fucking drown.
Why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling?
Personality replaced with internal conflict,
Asking, why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling?
Yeah, I'm struggling,
Yeah, I'm struggling, struggling.
I can't remember you calling me sober,
I wish that you would have asked me to come over.
You must have blacked out again,
Thoughts of a sober friend._

trying this out, but im more active over on FA at halomutt.

stupid thing i did yesterday as a warmup.